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"Sliding Doors" Friday, 17 November 2006

Posted by dragonzlad in Uncategorized.

“Sliding door” perspective of what my futures, in parallel existence, might be.

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Yet another day in the office. I went about my administrative tasks and soon enough I found myself staring into my monitor. I wondered whether my career was confined to this uninteresting scope. The phone rang. I answered and my heart skipped a beat. I asked a few questions urgently and then place the phone back angrily. Just then, my boss walked in and asked if I was aware of the problem. I nodded and replied that I would update him on the findings and new developments. The boss left. I sat in my chair and stared into my monitor blankly. I wondered why I would continue with a seemingly uninteresting job that required one to pick up the pieces when something happen. Realising that time was running out, I scrambled to find out what went wrong.

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“Hey Keith, how’s it going?”, I greeted my boss with a smile. It’s the start of a new week and I sat down with Keith to discuss the anaylsis and recommendations I had made for the business. I explained the Porter’s forces to him and the SWOT anaysis that I had done. But I could see that Keith was hesitant. Keith wasn’t too sure if the company had the resources to pursue the recommendations. The small-medium company wanted to expand and had enlisted my help but I wasn’t too sure how ready the company was in going regional. Keith’s mobile rang and he answered it. He looked up at me. He puts down his phone and told me of some complications that had occurred with the current job. I nodded and stood up to go to the job site. After all, in the small-medium company, one should expect to wear more than one hat. For now, I have to be the operations supervisor. My role as the business development manager will just have to wait.

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I stared at the fair porcelein-skinned girl in front of me. Long black hair, stylished cut with a well made-up face. A slim body with long legs to match. She could be one of the Chinese actress in Lee Ang‘s movies. She was singing a popular Shanghainese song which sounded alien to me. Around me, my Chinese business associates were leering at their KTV partners and groping them very openly. Mr Chen shouted across to me in Mandarin,”Hey, why are you sitting there like a block of wood? Come, relax and enjoy yourself!” and he pointed at the girl next to me and he winked. He then broke out into loud laughters. “Ph-ui!”. Another business associate spitted onto the floor as he reached out for the bottle of XO on the table while his KTV girl continues to caress his groin. I looked away. It was 2am when I got back to the hotel. I was feeling ill with all the liqour I had but I was glad I managed to convince my associates that the girl will have to wait another time. I sighed. I didn’t expect to be double-hatting as an accounts manager when I took on the role of product marketing manager with this MNC.
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Yet another day in the office. I whistle a tune as I always do when no one else is in the office. I have long grown to accept the way things are. I amjust glad that I have a stable job (for now) that pays decently. I will not get rich with that kind of pay but at least I do not have to worry about the bills too much. “As long as I spend within my means!”, I remind himself. After many years in this industry and job, I try not to think about what I can do if I leave now or in a few years to come. My Inbox opens and I check my email.

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Keith beamed at his management team as he annouce that the company had done well for the year. It had expanded and profits were good. He annouced a big bonues for their hardwork put in. Keith then asked Shirlyn and me to his office. When we sat down, he smiled at us and told us that he was giving us a pay increment. Keith was happy that the company has progressed in accordance to the plan that they had made together. I smiled. I was glad that work is interesting and challenging despite being in a SME. And my pay, which is a pay cut when I left my job to join Keith, has since surpassed my pay at my previous organisation.
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The girl smiled coyly at me and beckoned for me to come over and sit with her. I smiled and walked across to her. Noticing how shy the girl acted, my associates burst out laughing. I sat down. I started chatting with her while taking an occasional glance at my associates. I reminded myself that I have to push the new product to them before they leave with the girls for the night. The girl placed her hands on my thigh. Slowly she kneaded my thigh….. then my groin. I smiled. The merry-making continued till one in the morning before I finally got back to my hotel. I laid naked in bed with my clothes strewn on the floor. I looked at my body. It had grown to be like all my colleagues’. I lost my form and fitness with all the long hours at work and traveling. I closed my eyes, I was feeling a little high with all the liquor I had but I had gotten used to it. At least I wasn’t throwing up anymore. I smiled at how far I had come since joining the company as I got out of bed to take a shower. I was glad I didn’t have to compromise on my values although it did call for some acting. But I wondered how much more my liver could take.


1. Gay banker - Thursday, 23 November 2006

I think I must have seen an earlier version of this post, before you put in the ‘parallel existence’ explanation, and before the person was called ‘DL’. Before I was confused, now I think this is perhaps the best post I’ve seen on your blog. With material like this, perhaps you should take up full time blogging!

GB xxx

2. Dragonzlad - Thursday, 23 November 2006

Hey GB,

Yes, I thought it might be confusing too. 🙂

Glad you like it. It basically sums up some of the things occupying my mind these days.

Unfortunately, I don’t get inspired like this often so I think my blogging should be kept to a part time basis. The blog is already rather bland, even to his owner!

Have a great weekend.


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